The Kingdom is growing indeed... cont

Its amazing that people who are on this blog can think soo much alike, go through soo much the same experiences and can share them freely. I am thankful for this blog.

Jasper, i too am at that moment in my life where i find my self continously at God's feet. Sometimes i wonder that i may take soo much time fixing myself and yet not be able to be a neighbour, sister, minister among others. I too reach a point where i get confused and am like do i even understand God's word any more. Do i make sense when God has given me a specific message for someone and i have to pray for them, pray with them and share it with them. There is a certain longing of inadequacy and unquencheable longing that still lingers soo much. No matter how i pray, fast, or even throw myself in the presence of God. So am like, how long will it take to fix me? Do i fix me while still being the kingdom builder?

And just like Cry, am tired of the selfishness and ''ME'' factor in the church. People will go to the mountain to fast and pray 6 months on till God has given them a job while ignoring the sister's child that is bedridden with cancer. Sometimes am like where is the love? Why cant we also tear our clothes for the sake of another person? Why isn't there carrying of one anothers burden any more?

I want to begin a journey of dying to self for the sake of the gospel. In order for God to be revealed, then i have got to die and i mean totally die. Where my senses have fully become his. I am crying to the lord to help me reach a point of death so that its not any more me, but him who takes over.



To Ponder: A life vest on a sinking boat can't help if u don't put it on. Sitting in church won't help you if you don't take the word...and put it on.